another reminder

and stars have died so that you may live

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destyneelove asked: I was reading your tags and I know this is a little personal but I had a similar experience. I've ended up with some serious anxiety due in large part to an abusive friendship that lasted far too long. I've never actually been able to talk to people about being in an abusive friendship because they don't get how people can be abused outside a romantic relationship. This is a long rambling ask to say I think it takes a strong person to deal with anxiety and abuse and I'm glad you "overshared".

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Okay so ever since grad school, I have been really struggling with anxiety and depression of some sort. I was in and out of therapy a few times, I’m surrounded by MH professionals all the time because of work. I know about how abuse works and how depression and anxiety work. I know how self-care and self-awareness are key to recovery. I know these things fairly well.

I never thought what I went through in that friendship was abuse.

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#i bet dum dum took this picture#dum dum always had a camera of sorts on him#he liked to tinker with it#and he liked to make memories last#when you’re six feet under all that matters is the memories you leave behind#the smithsonian’s exhibit is 76% courtesy of timothy dugan’s estate#although there are other pictures that the commandos burned#after ve day#a funeral pyre if you wish#without bodies to bury#they each had turns to keep the folded flags#both cap’s and sarge’s#and they burned those pictures#those memories didn’t belong to history#they belonged to the two of them alone#the boys knew that#and respected that  {via ink-phoenix}

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Filed under Ink YOU ARE ON VACATION YOU CAN'T JUST DO THIS HOWLING COMMANDOS howling commandos otp: i know you bucky barnes is a problem steve rogers is also a problem

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the worst thing about being shy and introverted is that you most of the time come off as cold and arrogant like you think you’re better than everyone else and thats why you don’t talk to people or hang out with them but it’s really the opposite its like you’re so uncomfortable with yourself that you don’t wanna share it with anyone else so you just dont and people think you’re an asshole but you’re actually just really scared

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Filed under legit my rep in high school was completely this and i had no idea because i thought everyone didn't care and wouldn't give a shit if I tried so I didn't and then one day I overheard the popular girl on the dance team say I was such a bitch and never talked to anyone and i died anyone anxiety is a fucking bitch and being introverted on top of it with a learning history of 'your problems are meaningless' and 'your opinions are meaningless' from an abusive friendship for 7 years leads to shit like this oversharing about thunderpenny anxiety depression

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"When did the anxiety start taking over?"
"When it actually matters, you know? When you’re auditioning for, you know, for your work, your career, your life. You’re an adult, it’s not just fun and games, you’re actually trying to build something and when it doesn’t work out, you start to kind of get.. you know."

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Filed under jesus christ chris never stop talking about the anxiety please it's so fucking important /just crying in a coffeeshop shhh/ i takes over when it actually matters jfc truerer words were never spoken jfc chris you meatball anxiety self-worth

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Anonymous asked: Do you ship stucky?



Filed under Anonymous that pic is named 'ihatethemsomuch' in my folder and i do i hate them i hate their story and their ridiculous codependency and their habit to constantly save the other i hate how steve thought he could save everyone and learned the hard way he couldn't i hate how bucky thought he could live for someone else and had everything taken from him i hate steve's 'i don't know' in TWS i hate 'i knew him' i hate the final fight with steve trying to not fight and bucky yelling at him to fight him i hate them so much otp: i know you bucky barnes is a problem steve rogers is also a problem he's my friend

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petrushkabucky asked: Hi, I just thought that I should inform you that I have watched all of two episodes of The West Wing (because of the President America AU) and I'm completely hooked. It really wasn't good planning on my part to start a seven season show five days before school starts up again, but I'm glad that I did.

I’m glad you did too! 

Most of the President America is in the first four seasons, but the entire series is great, so I’m always on the ‘watch the whole series’ bandwagon.

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captainstevebarnes asked: Reading your tags on Steve being a troll, I could see him sneaking into a tour of the white house wearing a Brooklyn sweater and cap just enjoying the anonymity for a bit. All the kids know who he is, but they keep quiet because Mr. President Rogers tells the best stories about the white house than even their tour guide. When they get to the Oval office he says "Well this is my stop, See ya!" and all the Parents look in shock while the kids just wave goodbye.

too cute too cute too cute

Filed under President America this is adorable i am in love captainstevebarnes